SZA Says She Began Making Music to ‘Prove a Point’ to Her Ex-Fiancé
“I realized, as of recent, that a lot of this shit is not normal,” she said at the 11:30 mark. “And I didn’t know how to process that experience. And I was having a lot of lashing out, a lot of frustration. There are a lot of opinions, a lot of entitlement to your space, a lot of entitlement to your time, a lot of expectation, and no one is understanding.”
The 34-year-old confessed that these feelings toward fame have made her feel “on edge and not a kind person.” She opened up about feeling anxiety over how she’s perceived “in a vacuum, in your most high pressure moment,” as opposed to her authentic self.
Her concerns over public perception even led to panic attacks. “I started having weird panic attacks I never had before. Crying and shit in spaces that were just…I’m at a photo shoot for Wall Street Journal and I’m crying on set because I’m freaking out about being perceived, and I’m just like, ‘I just can’t do it,'” she recalled at 15:48.
SZA described her current stage as being “concerned about what does all of this actually mean, how do people view me, how do people see me, what do they expect from me, can I just disappear and not talk to anybody? … So many things.”